Writer after God's Own Heart

I totally do not know now Things running on my mind Swimming all around I wish I could find Thinking everything is blunt Yet focus is out of notch Finding the true math Truth should be in path Days passed so fast Years ended too quick in a glance Yet feet could not start the dance Stamped the toes on fire Held the fan too tight Swayed the thought in plight Penned the hand in band Body swirled in vine Dreaded with the facts Things should've done Misses added in the run Stretched so hard Wondering the what Answering the ask Thinking of the how The fashion of the plow Cleansed the plank Tears were wiped Felt the heat of heart Burning incense of love Rescued jewel so fine Diamond pressed in fire Created in complexity of your hand Could no more explain the why Died in the ninth hour Completed what was written in time Victory over the scam Foe was painted in blank Water and blood poured the ground Veiled torn in half Door opened so wide A n

Something has been roaming around my mind Questions, questions that keep on lighting up inside But the answers are not so plain in sight Thus wishing words may come in light. Thinking of the things that could reason out the "What" or the "Why" Huh! Thoughts are crashing over and are out of the line Still hoping that truth will come to bring peace and life So that the dead hope will come back in might I tried seeking a hand everywhere for a guide Even soaring up in the sky so high to glide While fixing the lenses to focus the eyes However failure knocked down everything in just one plight These efforts? Those works? All boiled down to die Did many on my own just to simply get burnt and tired Letting the joy in my heart be stricken and fired Rolling! Walking around, here and there without a paint of smile Denied help to live and survive so many times Fear, failures and doubt; Oh something I shrug and deny Although I know deep within I am hurting