Writer after God's Own Heart

Right at this moment, awakening is at the doorstep of my heart waiting for the sun to shine but to no reason its light will not show up. With no intention to think, questions rushed through my head as if it was on the race with the beaming light of the sun. I thought maybe I am on the lazy day of my week because I intend not to do what I am ask to do or have I forgotten what is the reason of living the entire day.  I have been searching for ways yet seemingly there's none to cater my concerns. It seems like my questions will be unanswered. As I recall how I was back then, I realize I am no longer the person who could easily find ways to resolve my issues. I didn't know what happened or why have I changed a lot. Is it the beginning of my life now? Or am I just being stubborn to listen to what I am told to do? All these are inside of me. I couldn't take them off or not even put them into writings instead to ease what I was feeling.

Blind date? What is that? It has been my question since then.  Well, I was just so innocent before yet now I know that blind date is something we do to look for true love. However most of the blind dates I know now are made for a romantic thingy. My only question is, "so this blind date, it is only made for people."? I believe that it is not just made for people to find love for each other but also to have a date with a book where we can find love from the Father. It has been said that love has a lot of meaning yet no one can sincerely define it. Yes, indeed we have a lot of things in our mind so we try defining love yet those are just the descriptions of how we feel when we are in love or heart broken. Yet, I may say that we can also find love inside a book. Yes, that's right. Since that we are looking for love, OMFLIT bookstore in SM Pampanga held an event called Blind Date with a Book. Well, who says that blind date is just for searching a partner or we often say a...

it is so frustrating to know that the perspective of people around you is changing when they found out the real you. it's like pain in your neck when they treat you in abnormal way... Yes, though you may know these people for such a long time and befriended them yet at the end of the story they tend to act like you're not worth to called as their friend. It is such a sad reality. Once, I have read a book written by Phillip Yancey that there was a prostitute woman who sells her daughter for a kinky sex in order to support her addiction. She was asked by Phillip if she ever thought of going to church but what the woman yelled instead, why the hell am I going to a church? I am already bad and they would just make me feel worst... How drastic it is that people shall say that they would accept you as what you are however, I may say that they just don't know the real meaning of the word, "ACCEPTANCE"... :(